with the end of one bad habit, here I am sinking back into the other. Day four of my no-smoking regime, with only one slip-up today: two drags of Tanner's cigarette. Marijuana still remains an every-other-day indulgence, but I don't think about it much.
So those are under control.
It's not like it's full-fledged bulimia, like it used to be. No crazy binges followed by panicked purges. This is different, more like extreme dieting. I restrict, but when I'm at home, I can't stop myself from eating. I can stave off the disgust for myself by telling myself that I'll throw up as soon as I'm done. Which I have been doing regularly for the last three days. But I don`t know what this is! It`s not a binge, and while this is technically a purge, it`s not bulimia.
